Why can’t I change? Why won’t God step in and do it for me?
Do you ever feel this way? I sure do. But we’re certainly not the first to wrestle with these questions. Paul, an apostle of Jesus and ancient writer of the New Testament, fought the same battle:
“I decide to do good, but I don’t really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway. My decisions, such as they are, don’t result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time. I’ve tried everything and nothing helps. I’m at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me?”
Can you feel Paul’s frustration? I can…I have.
But that’s not his only problem. Paul also had some sort of infirmity and begged God to fix it, but He said no. Instead, God said, “My grace is enough; it’s all you need.”
In the original language, the word for grace is charis, meaning good will, loving-kindness, favor. I imagine God’s heart behind those eight simple words goes something like this…
Though I say no, My good will toward you has not changed.
Though I will not, know that My loving-kindness is still at work.
And though you cannot, you always are my favorite.
My grace is enough.